there's beginning of november..ahh...it's cool right?? it's gonna have final exam btw.. i'm not totally ready yet.. with my low carry marks, and loss in focus.. i think i cant do my best on this final exam.. troubles always chase behind me..
now, i would like to story about somebody..actually it's about somebody and someone.
he hate when he fall, nobody come and give he a hand,. why when they fall, he always be there . he's really2 sick about this. he think that he's just be used for. his friend told he that not too be kind..maybe they just used he for their good. when it finished, they will throw he like the trash.
hmm.. what kind of fate.. after he's been hurt by friends, there something that made he cry.. she's the only that he love..he don't know to start from where.. it's happened too fast. he totally disappointed with what had happened.. he know when he start the conversation, it's will hurt the heart. but he couldn't to keep this thing as long as he can!! he's not strong enough!!
you know what, he's really tired and sicks about this.. everyday it's like scratching his heart. he feels like a blank plain paper.. it's very2 hurts him.. he don't know how to explain his feels. he hate the times of his life!! if he can, he want to run from this sucks thing! he don't know why, when she did that, he's feels hurt. he wondering who is he to she?? why did she do that to he?? she told her cousin is in trouble, it's ok cause he understand it. but without any information, and nobody told he, she join his friend goes for hang out.
it's doesn't matter if she wanna go out, but when she didn't told him that she went out, he think she's in anywhere with her cousin.he is really shocked when she told he that she join them.. he is totally feels that he really stupid because almost a day he trust she is with her cousin... he though she's with her cousin.. he felt like he had been tricked. hmm.. don't know why, he think that he is nothing in front of her eyes.. he look at she, he feels he's really far from she.. his mind asking why all this happened to him.. he's trying to control himself in front of she..he didn't want to show his disappointed face.. but when he go back home, he tears again. he though he's strong enough, but when he being hurt with the person that he love, he is weak.
why this all happened to he?? he know she's come to here with the trust of friendship. he look, she always be with her friends. always do such thing with her friends, always laugh with her friends. and always wanna go with her friends.. she always winning her friends because she's loyal with the friendship. but, without she realize, there someone waiting for . with high patient, he try to still waiting when will she turn to him.
he always be there for she. he trying to do the best or she.. he hope that with all his sacrifice, she will realize that he's really2 love she.. but, a day after a day, he only get pain with what he have.. he's like live in his world. with nobody. live alone. with having death note on his hand. waiting something with nothing.. he's totally nothing..
he's hope he will be the person she be with. he hope he the person that laugh together with she. he also hope will do everything with she.. he hope one day , he will feels he is appreciated..
all he want is she will spend more time with him.
his housemate can understand what he wants, but why not she??
he's really2 sicks with this.. until the suitable time, he will go. go with broken heart. maybe she will be happy with her friends without him.
he realized that she's not his right. he cannot control her life, decide what should she do.. he only can watch what she will do. from far away
he is in trouble tired.
he's gone.
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